denial

I can't face this. I'm still just waiting for you. I'm fucking waiting for you. Are you just going to toss me out like I'm garbage? Please don't do this baby, please. You didn't even say goodbye. Goddammit Chris, please don't do this to me. I need you. I fucking need you.

It's so fucking weird to be at this place I never thought I would be with you even though I've been scared of this for so long. You always made me feel safe and reassured me. There is no reassurance here. You dumped me.