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 knhieu@brainfuse.com with the following items:

Email Subject Line: "PRIORITY Indeed Applicant – Brainfuse Math Coordinator"

Email Attachments:
- Resume
- A copy of your bachelor’s degree (or higher) or unofficial transcripts that show your qualifications for teaching mathematics
- Teaching License or Certificate (preferred, but optional)

Please share a detailed overview of your experience and skills that align with the requirements of the Math Coordinator role.

Also, confirm that you have the following equipment ready:
- Personal computer or laptop
- Fast and stable internet connection that can handle streaming for multiple devices
- Integrated or standalone microphone with clear audio output

Please state your availability (e.g. Mon - Fri, 10 AM – 1AM ET), whether you are looking to apply for the full time or part time position, and your earliest available start date.

We are looking to rapidly hire many Coordinators and can only review fully completed applications with all the components above. Please be prepared to complete and provide the typical pre-employment materials in case we decide to proceed with your application (W-4 Form, I-9 Form, I-9 Acceptable Documents, State Tax Withholding Form – if applicable, Direct Deposit Form and a voided check).

Thank you,
Kevin Nhieu
Program Manager
knhieu@brainfuse.com

What am I supposed to do

I don't know what I can do to make this better. I'm still on one. This has been very upsetting to me. I don't want to fight with you or lose you to Shasta. I love you and I always have, you know that. When I met the Mormon I felt like I was meeting the bigfoot or something. I feel like you should get me a shirt that says "I met the Mormon and lived to tell about it" For real. And I really wish that you could move on from it. It was a mistake fuel headed by the creature itself. He did it to cause problems for us, and here nearly 4 years later it is still causing us problems. I remember the next day you were just so mean and cold to me. And now all this stupid chatline stuff is coming back up in my life. I don't want this to be my life.

But then I think about you meeting Shasta and it's devastating to me. DEVASTATING! Is that how you feel about me meeting the Mormon? Does it make you sick to your stomach? I'm sorry. I'm so sorry if I've made you feel that way. I don't want you to feel bad. I don't want you to feel so betrayed and decieved. Having to wonder and worry about what we talked about, what we did with each other. I did a stupid thing. I didn't know it was going to be so upsetting to you at the time because you have so many girlfriends why would you care so much about me.

You know that I have worked hard to become a different person. To not need male attention to make myself feel ok. That I don't need to go on that chatline to make myself feel special or important. You did that for me. You made me realize that 1) I have to keep myself ok. I can't rely on anyone else, even you, to make me feel like I'm going to be ok. You make me feel good. I love you and I feel loved by you. I make you laugh sometimes. I hear you laugh sometimes. 2) I don't need that chatline to be ok. I can be ok, and actually more ok if I just stay off of there. That place is just full of wicked hurt. 

I'm assuming you are super pissed at me now because of what I did earlier. I was so hurt. I was so angry and beside myself. I wasn't thinking, I was acting out of uncontrollable emotions because you told me that Shasta was coming to see you. I have put all my effort into changing my ways and becoming a better person. Yes, I went on the chatline tonight a few times but I didn't say a single word to anyone. Not that it matters but I didn't. 

The Box

On the floor there is a box.

The box is open, the lid is laying next to it

I have begun folding and wrapping all of my beautiful things and putting them in this box.

I have moved many times.

This time is not the hardest.

I don't know when I'm going to go, it's not up to me.

But I know that when it's time, I'll be ready to go, much more than last time.

I will slip the lid on the box and put it on a shelf and then I will walk away.

I will be okay.

I love you

That is all.

Ugh!

There are wild horses running up hills and there are trees for as far as your eye can see. You want to get up and froclick in the warm sun and the cool breeze. I can see it in my mind. I can see me sitting in a shitttiy little apartment next to neighbors that suck. I want more for myself. I really love horses. I really do. I love singing even though I'm not very good at it. It's fun amd it makes me feel good. That's how I feel about tik tok and how I feel about my game. Sucking my thumb, wetting my pasts and having nasty coughing fits. I know I have problems but I think with the help of a community service provider I will be able to manage my bills and money. Help getting my food togetehr and maybe who knows I just need help.

 

why?

I don't understand why you do this. Why for a moment you're the most sweet and loving man I've ever met in my life and then as if somebody pushed a button you turn into someone cold and calculating and cruel. So when you are so good to me it's almost like a warning sign it's something bad is about to happen. But I still love you. And I don't care what you do when you're not with me, that is none of my business. I couldn't go to sleep last night so I took some sleeping pills and I came out and had a cigarette and when I went back upstairs I didn't want to go in my room because I was watching tick tock and I didn't want to bother neema so I sat down on the living room couch and fell asleep. And I listened to you snore half the night.

This is why I don't ask for your phone number or suggest that I move to Oklahoma or even suggest that I take f****** trip to Oklahoma because it pushes you over the edge. I know you're upset about the LIE I understand that one completely. But I know that you somehow forgave me for it for a few days.

I'm having a hard time with life and you know that. I don't know if that's why you continue to be nice to me or if it was something else. But I'll repeat the same thing that I've said before I'm not going to fight with you. I respect you too much I respect myself too much and I respect our relationship too much to do that to either one of us anymore. All the hateful things you're saying, you can save it. I'm very sorry for not being honest with you. If I could go back and make a different decision I would.

I have a life to live though and I can't throw it all away because you're being mean to me or because you won't talk to me. I have to fill out forms today I have to get my food stamps together, I have to get my insurance together, I have to deal with the student loan s***, I have to file my taxes, I need to go to Meddie labs and get blood work done for the doctor for my diabetes, and on top of all of it I have to go to family therapy with Lily today. And then with them leaving I have all of that to process. If you really think it's prudent to be cruel to me or just not talk to me at all that f****** sucks. That's a dick move. But I can't stop you. All I can do is wait and love you, that's all I have in me.

I'm sorry

    I'm sorry. I wish I would have told you at the time but I was scared you were going to be upset. And I think I was right. I needed a place to go and it was all I could afford at the time. It was literally the ONLY place I could fine.  I understand that you are upset with me. I wish we could just talk about it. I don't know if the shasta shit is true or not. I don't know for sure about anythinthg. I just can't fight with you. I love you and I don't want to say anything that is going to hurt you. I don't want you to hurt me either. I know I love you and you love me. I understand right now you might feel like you don't want to love me. I know that this could be a deal breaker. I don't know why I thought it was ok to tell you last night. That was a fucked up thing to do, to mention it like it was no big deal. Fuck me. seriously, sometimes I'm a fucking asshole. I just wish I had told you at the time but we were fighting so badly during that time. I was trying not to kill myself. I was and I'm sure you can remember that. I deserve to be punished. I just hope you can try to look at the situation I was in at the time and what my options were. I could have lived in my car. I love you and I don't want to fucking fight with you. I hope that there is a way that I can make amends to you. I miss you. I tried to answer the phone earlier but I still had gloves on and when I pulled my phone out it hung up. I'm so sorry if you're feelings are hurt or if you are angry. I will do whatever you need me to do.