one more thing

You say you think I'm talking to someone else but I'm not. Sometimes I find it rather hard to believe that you would care if I did, you've told me to leave so many times. Whether it's real or pretend, genuine or appeasing you are helping me and I love you for it. It means the world to me. I will always be grateful for what you've done for me and the way you continue to be here. I could never betray you.

See it's after 11 and I haven't heard from you and I've got that knot in my belly. It is so uncomfortable I don't want to be in my own body. I'm not going to freak out, I'm just going to ride it out. I am getting stronger.

Wtf? How did I miss 3 fucking phone calls? I was holding my fucking phone in my hand.