Im so lonely

 What do you do when the only person who gives a fuck about you stops giving a fuck about you? And not do they just stop giving a fuck but they start to actually hate you. They hate you so much they are so fucking mean you can't even get two words out of them that aren't fucking painfully brutal. What am I supposed to do? And you don't know why. I can guess, my head is forced to come up with it's own reasons because I don't have any real ones. Tonight is the finally of yellowstone and it doesn't even matter because my best friend hates me and isn't going to be there to watch it with me. I'm not as strong as other people, I can't just lose someone and not care.  I don't understand how he can just walk away from us.